I suck at this. I have hurt too many people in writting this blog to continue it in the same way anymore. I thought I would be able to write about my life from my perspective for a year and that people would excuse the content based on it being thoughts that I normally wouldnt express. I think that even I vialated that theory by using it as a means of being passive aggresive. I don't know how people write books and get away with all their thoughts exposed like that. Im also curious about how musicans can write songs about people and get away with that. I certainly couldnt get away with anything. A blog about making friends turned into one about how to loose them. My mom always reminds me that my grandma always says "never write anything you don't want a million people to read." I personally don't care who reads me, I just need to understand more about how what I write affects people. Because the majority of things I write that hurt people confuse me as to why. Words don't do me justice.
So I will now challenge myself to continue this project through a camera. Same principals but without words. Go...
Some things are meant for a diary in your bedside table drawer. Writers and musicians take heed of whom they may hurt, but don't necessarily get away with it. You have too small of a circle that reads your writing to be able to brush aside friendships for the sake of self-expression. Sometimes our thoughts and feelings don't parallel with how they are perceived. You must step lightly within the clutter of words. Images, on the other hand, can be dealt with more precariously, but still with caution.
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