Blah biddy blah...Im healthy and calm again. Im also back in DC. I have desided to go to massage therapy school. I have desided this because the other night at dinner mom was talking about how her and grandma couldn't really see why I wanted to do counseling but she said, "if thats what you want to do, then thats what you want to do." It dawned on me that, that wasn't what I wanted to do. There's to many gap in that field. What I mean is that, there is too much time between clients, doing paperwork, thinking up solutions. I realized I wanted to go to work and start working. I want to get physically involved with my work. I want to come home "physically" tired, not mentally. God knows I mentally exhaust myself (see previous blog). This feels GREAT! To finally have direction, something to work on, a light at the end of the tunnel. I now have to work on getting loans and choosing a school. I also plann to incorporate both Yoga and Photography in the big picture but not sure about it yet. My relationship with my parents has improved ten fold to me. Mom talks about trying to stay out of my business and I avoid trying to teach them anything. Plus they are happy and proud that I figured out what to do. What I learned from this relationship is that the less you try to teach people the better. Some people are reseptive to lessons but the majority of us want to figure it out for ourselves. Its hard for me to see how someone keeps butting their head against the same wall and they dont know why, I want to offer suggestions. And its hard to watch people live sheltered lives who dont even realize that the are and not try to help them see. But my break down made me see that "everyone has their time." All we can do is live our lives the best we can. We I did that my relationship with my folks changed.
My friendship with my fellow SGI member remain the same. None have really excelled to the next level. Basicly we hang out at events and meetings but not much more than that. I would love to make a stronger connection with one of them. I am working on planning both a camping and beach trip with whomever is willing.
Amazingly, even though I am allowing myself to date; I am not all that interested! I am very pleased with this. I am also very pleased to try my new arragment with a friend of mine this weekend!
Lastly, I would like to meet some people with similar interest as me (i.e. music, style, health, photography) I am axious to move to the city to try and meet them!
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